so i officially gave my four weeks notice to my boss on monday! i had prepared this whole elaborate lie and was going to tell him that will already got a job offer in california but i decided to just be totally honest with him (well, not TOTALLY honest - i didn't tell him how this job has been slowly making me go crazy these past three years!). i just let him know that we have been thinking about moving out to california for awhile now and we figured that this is the time to do it in our lives. he said he was sorry to see me go and that he doesn't blame me because if he didn't have any kids, he would probably move out there too! i am soooo glad that it went over well and now i don't have to watch what i say around him because he knows the truth. honesty really IS the best policy! that has been my #1 stress point over moving and i am just so RELIEVED that i got it over and done with. such a big weight has been lifted off of me! oh yes, and will gave his notice on Tuesday and it went over well there too. there may still be a chance that he can work part time for them at home so we are crossing our fingers that it will happen!
our departure date for california is september 7th! we are going to have most of our stuff shipped over using Pods and pack up the remaining stuff in will's subaru and head off towards the west! we're stopping in washington d.c. for a couple days to visit will's mom then we are going to west virginia to visit will's dad for a couple days. and then we continue our journey west from there! we have been trying to plan some cool things to look at on the way there. pretty much the only major things we have planned are visiting yellowstone and the crazy horse memorial. i keep wanting to take detours and go on all these others trips but then i have a panic attack about money and i really feel like we should just get to california as soon as possible so we can start our job search!
will took his car in this week to get his A/C fixed but it turns out he needs some other work done and it's going to cost us around $1000! and then the Pods is going to be around $1500 and then there's the money for our trip and then the money that will go to first month's rent and our deposit for our apartment...basically all our savings are rapidly deteriorating and i am already stressed out about it! i *know* if we really get in a pickle we can ask our parents to loan us some money until we are on our feet again but it still worries me. we have a little under $20,000 saved but it just doesn't seem like it will be enough (esp. cause i think will is buying me a really HUGE present fairly soon - which i want so so so badly but also feel guilty that he is dipping into the savings for it). the only other major thing i have planned before we leave is taking a quick trip up to maine to visit my cousin but i am REALLY going to try not to spend so much money while we are there!
i need to stop worrying so much about money and just go with the flow and really enjoy our adventure. i don't know whether i will ever have an opportunity like this again to be so carefree and cavalier so i am going to try to soak it in as much as i can. it may sound weird but what i am really looking forward to is just SLEEPING! i feel like i haven't had enough rest since i started this job - i have to be at work at 7AM M-F and i try to catch up on sleep over the weekend but it never happens. i plan on getting so much sleep that i will be sick of it by the time we get to california and then i will be motivated to start a new job!
other then that, i am still just trying to come to terms with leaving my family and friends. my two BFFs are throwing me a going away party next weekend and then we are having another going away party at Cleo (will's fraternity) to say goodbye to all our friends there. its really happening but i don't want to say goodbye yet! its true what they say that you really don't know what you have until it is gone! i used to constantly talk about how boring and lame connecticut is. but now that it is slipping through my fingers, i am really starting to appreciate all the wonderful things here...especially the people that i am leaving behind. i am blessed with SOOO many amazing friends and i am so lucky to have them in my lives. i have been trying to see people as much as i can before i leave and i never really realized just how many friends i have! i can still stay in touch with people over twitter and facebook but its definitley not the same. as much as i shit on this state, it really WAS a great place to grow up in. we have access to so much nature and beautiful sights but you can also go to NYC or Boston rather easily. i am still ready to say goodbye to CT though and i will never say never, but i do hope that this is the last time i live in this state. when all of my west coast adventures are done, i still dream about coming back to maine and settling there. but i guess we will see - only time will tell!
the worst part about leaving is saying goodbye to my parents and my sister brianne. i really have NEVER been away from my parents in all my 26 years. i lived at college for one semester my freshman year but i went home practically every weekend. and i lived with will in our apartment for two years...but my parents lived eight minutes away from us and i went home at least 1-3 times a week to spend time with my parents. i know that i need to be out on my own and be more responsible for myself but i just get so sad thinking about leaving them! i'm such a mess right now - i am literally on the verge of tears every time i even THINK about it. i guess because i know it will never be the same after i make this move...they say you can never come home again and i hope & pray that is not the case!
really this move has made me so thankful and i have realized just how lucky i am. a LOT of my friends don't have relationships like this with their own parents and it makes me so sad for them. i wish that everyone had what i have with my parents - i am both daddy's little girl and a momma's girl. my parents are so awesome and caring and smart and generous and even though they drive me crazy every now and then, i feel so blessed to have spent this much time with them. i guess i should just be thankful for what i have and not focus on the negative. :-(
ok this post is entirely too long, there's my life update...for now!
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